A-L-Stellhorn@msn.com

So donft be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time.h Matthew 6:34

WORRY AND FEAR

My friend spent the past few weeks feeling as though a spider was spinning an intricate fine thread within her heart, soul, and mind. Her thoughts were twisted and turned into every dark abyss of her soul. Wondering if her stumbling into self-pity would ever stop, she cried out for ghelp.h

One has to believe if the Holy Spirit comes into your life, the dark one or evil one can also creep within. He comes like a black filmy mass of slime and cowers in the intricacies of those spider webs. He waits in readiness to pounce within your heart and soul the second you begin to worry or to fill yourself with self-pity.

Yes, these past weeks she has felt self-pity and the black doom of worry moves in and about her mind creating a loathing of what she must now know, believe, and live with the rest of her life. She use to think she was strong and the evil one could not affect her, but he is relentless as she found out.

The Holy Spirit is always here for us, but that evil one can yank us into a sobbing of sorrow so strong we shut out all light that is about us. That is what happened to my friend. Jesus left the Holy Spirit for us, but as I seem to gpreach,h we HAVE TO LISTEN. My friend seemed to close her ears and only listened to her own sobs.

When the evil one beats us down into the gloom of life, we only hear him. We shut out all the light, we forget to Listen; we forget to remember all that Jesus told us, and we forget that we are lovedcBECAUSE THE EVIL LIES!

The fear of the next day or even the next second, once we hear news we do not want to hear, can devastate us. That fear can rise above the most beautiful tones of Heavenly music and the sweet Heavenly breezes of angelsf wings wafting through our soul, trying to calm us. Yet, we hear only the dark drudge of gfearh and feel the mist of dampness from our tears. That, my friend, is the evil one. He is so strong; he can break us in a second, if we let him.

That is why we must be ever alert to his deception. He gains hold of our fear and reaches into the depths of our hearts and souls and jerks us right into his strangle hold, IF WE LET HIM.

My friend was there, she let him into her life, she knew better, she loves God, she listens to the Holy Spirit, she has conversations with God, and she feels she serves God in the way He calls hercc.The evil one got to her.

If the evil one can get to my friend, he indeed, can get to anyone of us. The glorious news is that, this time, my friend finally heard the Holy Spirit speaking to her and she saw how bright her life is. My friend shut out the dark stinking mass of slimy sin swirling around in her soul like an F-10 tornado and was finally able to rise above the fear.

My friend reached out to many friends, both known and unknown, personally, to her. She reached out to a friend of over 39 years, she reached out to her prayer partners, she reached out to long-known internet fellowship friends, and she reached out to God and told Satan, gGet behind me!h

You see my friendfs diagnosis is an ailment she does not like very well. Her doctor tells her she needs to keep doing what she already does. The doctor tells her she is blessed because she has no symptoms. My friend does not understand all of this and it really got to her.

However, today, after going through her grief time, realizing, with the help of so many that she is loved, she is going to be ok because life is all in Godfs timing.

Can you imagine my friend awoke on her grandmotherfs couch at 3:30 A.M, when she was eight or so, realizing she had not said her prayers and felt so badly, she starting praying and asking for Godfs forgiveness? She listened at an early age, never understanding.

Can you imagine, my friend at eight or so kneeling at her friendfs church, up front, while her friendfs father told her she would go to hell if she did not repent, and my friend wept uncontrollably. This was so much for a young child to endure at the voice of an adult minister.My friend never treated a child like that, God showed the way.

Can you imagine, my friend being rescued from a dangerous meeting with a man, probably a pedophile coming to her front door, when no one was home, she was about 10, convincing the man her uncle was asleep. This man was more than likely a killer in Cleveland, OH in the 1950fs. My friend was protected by the Holy Spirit.

Can you imagine my friend finally having a child when she was 30 years of age, being in labor for 22 hours without pain, not knowing what to do, until she spoke with the Holy Spirit? Her baby was born with a hole in his heart, not expected to livec.her son was healed and lived and she was told he would be blind by age 14, when her baby was 2.cat age 4, he was healed and had a totally different prognosisc..as a teenage her son fell asleep at the wheel of a convertiblec.went down into a culvertc..came back up, with his hands off the wheelc.angels and the Holy Spirit saved him, my friends saysc.and yes, I believe her. Her son does as well.

Can you imagine, my friend never had a mammogram, yet she had an accident, injuring herself 3 years ago, she found out she had cancer. Today she is a cancer survivor and knows, by the grace of God, she will continue to be so she can serve God as He calls her to do. She listens.

The big thing is she has been listening for so long, not really, always knowing why. There are so many things she tells me she does not understand, I tell her, "You don't have to understand, just have faith."

So much has happened to my friend, as well as to all of us. Generally, my friend is very strong in her faith. This time, with her ailment, she fell flat on the rocky shore as the waves of doubt and fear washed over her nearly drowning her in her own self-pity.

Fortunately, for her she was able to reach up and out and someone guided her. The Holy Spirit guided her to a safe grassy knoll just over the hill filled with beautiful flowers and so many people that love her and pray for her that she was able to win. She won because she reached out; she won because when she could no longer pray for herself, others prayed her to victory.

So I pray for each of you that when you face worry and fear you remember my friend. We have all been there or will be there and all we need to do is reach out to others and to Our Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and we will beat the darkness out of our life, no matter what we must walk through. The walk will be hard at times, I know, but knowing we are not alone, we will succeed and be full of hope, love, victory and eternal life.

By the way, my friend told me she went to the grocery store after she had her encounterc.she passed her daughterfs house on the way home. Her daughter was mowing the lawn and my friend waved and went onc.except something, (now who could that have been?) directed her to turn around. Which, of course she did. My friend gave her daughter a riding lawn mower that needed fixing. Her husband fixed it, somewhat, but told her daughter she would not be able to start the mower.

Well, my friend went into the garage, prayed and after about five turns and fooling around with the gears the mower started. Now, the daughter has a pool and my friend asked God to help her maneuver around that pool to get to the other side of the yard, guess what?! God showed her the way. The daughter was waiting for her mother to land in the poolc..the mother said, gWhy? God showed me the way.h That is right folks, talk and listen to God and the Holy Spirit and they will show you the way. No not worry of your tomorrows, they will show you the way!

In Jesus name, I ask blessings for all of you, my dear friends. Amen

Copyright Leigh Moran

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